I appreciate everyone who's been praying for us and would like to ask that they continue to pray for us, for strength if nothing else. I'm getting tired of being told to stay positive, that things happen for a reason, etc. I appreciate how well-meaning these thoughts are, I really really do. But I've been more "up" than "down", more "postive" than "negative" for the last 4 years of trying to conceive. I have put my body through hell, and now I'm tired. I just want someone to tell me it's okay to wallow in my misery for a while.
Anyway, I'm going to tackle some major home improvement projects for the time being, in the hopes that that will keep me from having a complete and total breakdown. Love to all.