Now comes the part where you may begin to think I'm a little bit of a nutter. I'm okay with that, this is important. I had a bit of a revelation last week. Part revelation, part vision. The first part is what I said above about Nathan and additionally that I believe God gave me Nathan so that I could realize my talents as a mom so I can be available to kids who need a loving mama. Adoption has, of course, always been an option and an idea I was comfortable with. But I'm starting to very seriously believe it's my destiny. Now here's the vision part. I had an image of myself in Heaven. Jesus was there, of course, and I was following him around the place. My "job" such as it was, was to comfort the babies. Now I know there's no sin, no stress, no sorrow, no darkness of any kind in heaven. But babies still need rocking to sleep! I have felt so at peace about being infertile ever since I've had this revelation/vision. I'm very cool with not having any more babies to rock in this lifetime, if I get to rock them for an eternity with our Lord. I know it sounds crazy, and maybe it is, but it gives *ME* peace about a really lousy situation, so who cares if it's crazy?
- "He hideth my soul" from our hymnal